Life after 7 years

Working for corporates, tackling with other people's problems daily. After all these years, I wonder what I have produced. What I have achieved, can't think of anything worth. Earning money, absolutely not.

Money gives us the power to act upon individuals who need it. Even though how helpless we are at certain points in life, we get chances to act a god in someone else's life, at least once.

My annual salary, not long ago.. today I make that in a month. Should I do the "god act" now? 

In this short time, I've seen best friends becoming foes, foes becoming friends, liars getting praised, heroes forced into silence.. nothing is fair. But if it is, that won't be life. The blue pill of Matrix, in my definition, is to find truth of the external world. And the red pill is for the internal self. 

Trying to understand the external world is similar to the 4 blind men guessing the shape of an elephant. Ending is useless, even though results are correct.

I still keep onto my theory, which is "everything is a lie".